You are a liar.
You tell me that my identity is found in what I produce, not in who I am in Jesus. You tell me that I will be better-liked and respected more if I do more, faster. You tell me that I can’t stop doing because the to-do list never ends.
You are a deceiver.
You make me feel productive when all I have really done is made myself feel better by accomplishing things while neglecting to patiently love others. You make me believe that everything is urgent and everything hinges upon me. You make me believe that if I’m not constantly working on something then I am lazy and worthless.
You have robbed me.
You have taken away my joy in the “right now.” You have stolen time from me by telling me that there is more fulfillment in the next versus the now. You’ve taken away precious memories I could have had if I had not believed that the future is more valuable than the current moment.
I’m learning that the faster I go the less I become. I’m learning that slowness is often the road to fruitfulness. I’m learning that I don’t get to my future any faster if I rush. I’m learning that there is more joy in where I am now than where I will be. I’m learning that Jesus is speaking now. Softly calling me to abide in Him. Gently showing me my sin. Graciously showing me the cross. Gloriously pointing me towards my future glory. Patiently slowing me down to know Him, enjoy Him, and praise Him.
Hurry, I don’t regret telling you--I’m slowing down.
A Hurried Sinner Learning How To Slow Down